Monday, November 23, 2009
Magnificent Purpose
Now here I am, pondering on what to write again in my blog. I always wanna write but when I start staring on my screen, I get puzzled. Though there are lots of things in my mind but I can't seem to sort out on what should I write first. Needless to say, I am on the verge of a.. meltdown?
There are things I wanna do but I am losing the will power to do it. Just because of the hindrances I bear in my mind. like,
can I do it?
Can I handle it?
Will my parents approve it?
as I go on being twenty years old, i learned that my parents can't let me go on my own way. Biologically, I am the only child. and no matter how I long to do things on my own, or even start to look for my passion and career, they disapprove it. they don't even want to let me work yet.
Everyday, from the time I graduated, all I could do is sit back and relax at home. the same old routines day by day. I just wanna work and learn more in a workplace. I am an outgoing person but it seemed like I don't get to enjoy my personality development having faced this four corners of my room. Even though I have what I needed in my room, (tv-w/cable channels, sound system, computer with internet connection, refrigerator stuffed with goodies and chocolates) I still wanna work. Do more productive things. And most especially,
STEP OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE. But nothing seems to work out if I don't wait. I remembered the line our pastor have said, "Lord please give me patience! Now na! " How could we ask this virtue of even in asking we don't even have patience---- funny right? but without us knowing, we often do it subconsciously.
I have desired more in life, but I bear in mind that God has prepared something bigger than what I desire. I just need to learn this common-but-usually-unattainable-virtue : PATIENCE.
but you know guys, you have to work hard for it too.. :)
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Whatever you desire in life, LEARN God's perfect timing so that you may discover that all the PAIN found in WAITING has a MAGNIFICENT and AWESOME PURPOSE "